Month: November 2018

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Welcome to our Loud, Crazy Autism Home

Welcome to our Loud, Crazy Autism Home

Yesterday, I came across a meme created by Joy of Autism  (if you haven’t checked out her page, yet, you are missing something!) about welcoming people into her home – and reminding visitors that their home is her son’s safe place, to truly be himself.  I shared it on our Facebook page and was surprised at the response from everyone who saw it.

When we are at home, Casey and Rob are free to be themselves.  While I do remind Rob to use a quieter voice, at times, when Casey is trying to sleep, for the most part, I let them be.  They do so well at holding it together every day while out in the world – they need to be able to come home and just relax.  I do the same thing.  It’s usually only a few minutes after I get home that I’ve got comfy clothes on and I’m ready to chill for a little while.

Visitors to our home know that Rob may be singing his anxiety song or fairy dancing through the house.  Casey might be stomping her figure eights upstairs and trying to sneak into the refrigerator.  They know that I’m glad they are visiting, but I’m also always aware of what the kids are up to – that I may jump up at any time and go check on them.  Strangers who visit for the first time can either accept that or leave.  This is OUR safe place and we make no changes for others.

I remember when they were little and Mandy had friends over.  Whenever Rob took his shower, she would make sure her friends were safely upstairs, as modesty was never Rob’s strong suit.  Now, he wouldn’t dream of leaving the bathroom with no clothes on, but he may venture out without completely pulling on his pants.  We’re used to it, so if we do happen to have company, I try to position myself to block any view.  (He comes right to the kitchen for his pills and snacks after his shower.)

Casey could care less who sees what.  I have tried over and over to remind her she needs to be dressed when she leaves the bathroom, but if she got her weekend-after-bath slippers instead of her weekday-after-bath slippers, she’ll run to her room to make the switch.  (She has several classifications for slippers – and she refuses to wear a pair of slippers that aren’t right.)

So, when you visit, if I seem to be standing in the door between the kitchen and dining room and looking over my shoulder for a long time, I’m just making sure you aren’t treated to a sight you can’t unsee.   🙂   When we had the pool, Casey and Rob both would yank their bathing suits off on the back porch so they wouldn’t get the floor wet.  They never cared who might be driving by.

Rob might be ripping paper and rocking in his recliner.  He might be making noises that you can’t understand, but I do.   It’s okay if you admit you can’t understand.  It’s not okay for you to think I need to change him while you are here.  That ain’t happening.  Casey might be sitting on the love seat and playing with her iPad.  If she has it too loud, I’ll ask her to turn it down – but I won’t ask her to leave the room.

I won’t ask her to take the blanket off of her head so you can talk to her.  She’ll hear you just fine – say what you want.  I won’t ask him to come out of his room while you visit.  He’ll come out if he feels like it.  You are welcome to peek in and say hi to him, but know that he may not answer you.

It’s hard to let people into our safe place.  Any time someone new comes in, I am nervous, as you never know how people will react to autism.  I don’t think anything about it, but for someone who isn’t around autism, our routines and quirks can seem odd and not worth the effort.  (Our schedule is worth the effort – trust me.  Life without our routine is not fun.)  I can’t change our routine for you.  It’s simply not worth it to me.  At times, a slight change can keep the kids up for hours and I need sleep.

Other times, you may not notice anything odd about our home.  When the kids are having good days (and most are good!), autism isn’t obvious, unless you know what you are looking for.  On other days, you may see/hear the kids stimming to relax.  You may find their habits weird and that’s okay as long as you remember they are doing what they need to do to make sense of this crazy world.  You are welcome to ask questions.  You are not welcome to tell me how to change our world.  I will show you the door.

I’m sure that sounds terrible, but you knew about the autism before you came to our home.  If you have some experience with it and offer a few ideas that you have tried, thank you.  If you are nervous, that’s okay.  If you really want to know us, welcome!  If you are just nosy, go away.  We don’t need you.

Please, parents – let your kids be themselves – especially when they are at home.  I know you may not want some people to know just what your life is like, but really, what harm can it do?  If you are embarrassed, try to relax.  Your visitors should understand and, if they don’t, do you really want them around your children?  You are their protector, their advocate, the one they run to when they need help.

Home is their place to just be them.  We love to have visitors, but only ones who understand that we do live in a circus and we love it that way.  Accepting our wild lives is the best gift you can give us this holiday season!

 

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Autism and the Different Therapies we Tried

Autism and Different Therapies

A few weeks ago, I mentioned in one of my posts that Casey and Rob had taken Equine (Horseback) therapy and I had a few questions about how that helped the kids and what else we had tried.

Casey and Rob both started with speech therapy early.  I drove Casey to a city about 35 miles from us twice a week when she was 3 to get speech therapy.  It was the closest place for us.  Once she began preschool with our local school district, she got therapy there and once a week the therapist came to our house.  Not only was this lady an amazing speech therapist, but she had some experience with sensory issues and taught me a few tricks that I still use today with the kids.  (Thanks, Connie!)

Rob started getting speech at home, along with a preschool teacher who visited.  Both were once a week when he just turned 3.  (Mandy was still in the preschool class he would be starting, so we thought it best for her to finish the year and have him start the following fall.  With his late August birthday, he would still have two years of preschool.)

Casey continued with speech therapy when she started Kindergarten and was seeing the therapist twice a week and for group time.  Our local hospital finally had a speech clinic by this time, so I took them both every week for one on one at the clinic.  This lasted about a year, until the hospital lost the therapist.  Several years later, I would again be taking them to that clinic for speech.

Rob went to our county board of DD Kindergarten instead of going to our local school district.  The teacher he was supposed to have was one that wasn’t good for Casey and I refused to let her near him.  While he was in Kindergarten, he started Occupational therapy, along with speech.  When the school district hired an OT, Casey started seeing her, too.  (OT can be a wonderful tool to help with sensory issues!  Neither Casey or Rob had many issues with fine motor skills, but the sensory play they taught helped so much!  Thanks, Deena, Steve, and Brooke!)

We discovered that many of Casey’s meltdowns were from sensory issues.  She was simply overwhelmed by sounds and couldn’t help herself.  She didn’t have the words to tell me what was wrong, so she screamed and cried.  (Don’t misunderstand – some of her meltdowns were schedule changes, too, or my changing the routine that she so rigidly followed!)  I learned that piles and piles of blankets were an absolute necessity for both kids to be able to calm down enough to even think about sleeping.  (We still had sleep issues, but screaming wasn’t one of them – finally!)

Rob needed deep pressure to stay calm and control his anxiety.  He was terrified of loud noises (School bathrooms were a nightmare for him!) and he wore ear protection for most of his elementary years.  Not only did the head set block (he wore a set of hunter’s ear guards) the noise, but it added deep pressure to his head and he didn’t feel the need to squeeze his jaw as often.  He wore a weighted vest when he was at school and also had a weighted lap blanket for days he needed even more.

It was suggested that a swing may help him even more and the school purchased a large platform swing for his classroom.  Beth (his one on one) figured out that he could do math and spelling quickly while he was swinging so she worked with him while he laid on the swing.  Spelling was always easy for him, but although he could do the math, it had little interest to him.

In 2003 – 2004 (I can’t remember, exactly!) we found out that an equine therapy group had been started.  I knew the couple who started it and decided to take the kids one evening to see what it was all about.  I knew Casey wouldn’t like it, as she was scared to death of animals, but part of the therapy was petting and brushing your horse and I thought she might get close enough to touch one.  I also knew Rob wouldn’t be a problem – my little daredevil would try anything.

I was shocked when Casey climbed into the saddle of the horse before she was even asked if she wanted to ride!   There was a person walking on each side of the horse and another one to lead.  She sat up so tall and looked like she had been riding her entire life.  Rob jumped on a horse, too, and soon gave the volunteers heart attacks as he leaned too far one way and then the other so he could watch the horse’s feet.  I assured them he wouldn’t fall, but it took a few weeks before they believed me.

During their therapy, they had to complete different games from their horse’s back.  They threw basketballs, tossed beanbags and rings and had to stretch to ring bells.  With the beanbags, the holes were different shapes and colors and they were told which color/shape to aim for.  Rob had a deadly aim, even as he barely looked at the board.  I soon learned that while they were on their horses, they could do things that they couldn’t do normally.  They both knew their right from their left hands (After years of doing this on horses, they still can’t tell me when they aren’t on one.  Or they simply don’t care!  🙂  )

They could answer simple questions and practice their spelling words.  We practiced math facts – anything to keep drilling those lessons into their heads.  (and strangely enough, the spelling and math stuck with them when they weren’t on their horses – it seems only right/left didn’t matter).  Because there was a large group riding, the evening also became something of a social event for me.  I could talk to other parents of kids with special needs as we took turns leading horses or walking with the kids.  It was great knowing that Rob’s squeals or Casey’s obsession with socks wouldn’t be an issue!  (By the way – Casey’s horse was named Socks – how appropriate is that?)

After more than 12 years of riding, we stopped horse therapy for different reasons.  I had developed a severe allergy to the horses and could no longer be near enough to help (even with medication, there were times I could barely drive home) and the kids seemed to be losing interest in it.  It had become something that “had” to be done instead of something we all enjoyed.  If you have equine therapy close to you, please consider trying it.  It was a great experience for us.

Rob takes aquatic therapy every two weeks at the hospital to help with his anxiety and for something he loves to do.  Insurance will only pay for 26 visits a year, but we are both thrilled with that.  He loves going and he loves his therapist (Thanks, Erin!) and is always excited to tell me what he did that day.  I did have to warn her that he would sink to the bottom and sit and not to worry about him, but it did still freak them out the first few times he did it.  (It seems he will never come back up as he sits down there and grins up at you!)

There are so many therapies available to help people with autism, now.  I do the same thing with therapies that I do with meds.  I think about what good can happen, what side-effects can happen and the expense.  And I ask the kids if they want to try. Sometimes, the answer is no, and that’s fine.  I wait a few months and ask again.

ABA became popular when my kids were a little older and there was no one in our state able to provide those services.  When I taught preschoolers with autism, we used the ABLLS system and I did a lot of that with Casey and Rob, even though they were much older.  They both enjoyed the little games and I’m sure it helped some.

As with anything else concerning your child with autism, follow your gut instincts when considering a new therapy.  You will know quickly if something is working (or not working!) for your child.  Find something fun with a great therapist.  And if you would like to hear more about our experiences with the therapies we tried, send me a message!  🙂

 

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Autism and the Wandering Child

It was in the news again the other day. Another child with autism wandered away from school. The scary part was that he left the school and it was an hour before they knew he was gone. From what I understand, they only realized it when his mom called and asked where he was. The teacher was a substitute (not an excuse, however!) and he left.

He was found by a kind stranger who got him to safety after he crossed a busy street in front of her. When he couldn’t answer her questions, she called the police only to find out no one had reported him missing. As she waited for an officer, she posted his picture on Facebook and a friend of hers happened to be the boy’s mom and contacted her. Can you imagine finding out on Facebook that your son was missing?

I cannot even begin to imagine how that mom felt. I would have been beyond furious – especially when I discovered the school didn’t even know he was missing, yet – and it had been an hour! The anger and the hurt and the fear – this was a place where her child was supposed to be safe!

I understand how quick kids can be – even typical kids! Kids with autism can be determined and typical things (such as locks) may not deter them. I was lucky. Casey wandered off the school playground once but her teacher was right behind her. Rob left the yard once. We live across the street from a ball field and for a while, he loved nothing more than carrying his bat, ball and glove around. He saw a bunch of boys playing, grabbed his things and crossed the street. (I had stepped into the garage for less than a minute!)

Neither on mine tried to leave the house at night. I know so many people with autism are wanderers and nighttime does not deter that. Nor do locks. I have heard many people say there is no way they can get out of locked doors and I can tell you – they can. They seem to understand how the lock works and how to open it. Don’t believe me?

I had a bicycle lock that had four numbers you needed to line up in the correct order. I never let either of the kids see the front or back of the lock as I opened it. It took Rob less than three days to pick that lock. I had no idea how he did it until I bought a combination lock. I was sure he wouldn’t be able to figure it out. A few days later, I saw him holding it and studying it closely as he turned the knob. The lock opened in his hands. I still don’t know if he heard it or if it jumped a little when the right number was found.

I gave up with locks like that and began to use ones with keys. The funny thing is – he will look at the key and not pick it up to use it. Casey, however, can smell those metal keys. No matter where I hide them, she finds them. I carry them with me when I need to. When I ask how she finds them, she laughs. I guess she isn’t interested in giving away her secret ability!

I know many families who have alarms on bedroom doors and doors that lead outside. The doors and windows are locked up tighter than a maximum security prison and still the person with autism can escape. It’s an uncanny ability and one that scares parents to death. How can you keep a child safe when nothing will stop them?

There are many systems available now where a bracelet or anklet is put on the person with autism. This bracelet makes it possible to track the person and seems like an amazing invention – except that many people will simply remove the “can’t be taken off” item and leave it. I have no doubts that Rob would take off anything like that that I tried to put on him. Casey might leave it on if I tell her it’s jewelry. But it’s hard to depend on a system when you aren’t sure if your child will leave it on.

Wandering is one of the scariest things about autism. People with autism are drawn to water – to places that aren’t safe. And, most of the time, they won’t answer when someone calls their name. To be found, they need to be spotted, not heard. I know how quick my kids have been (and still are!) and every time I leave the house with them, I probably look like a secret service person as I constantly watch where they are and what might attract them enough to cause them to leave my side. It’s hard to relax when you need to be constantly on guard.

I can understand how a child can wander from a school. I know they are quick. What I can’t understand is how a school can not know for an hour a special needs child is gone. Don’t they have procedures in place as the students walk from place to place? When we walk our preschoolers to the bathroom, we count when we leave the room, when we get to the bathroom, before we leave the bathroom and when we get back. Why wasn’t that class counted? Why wasn’t the teacher warned he may wander away?

Playing the blame game helps no one – except that talking about how easily a person with autism can get away might make more people aware of the problem. Maybe they will be more aware and more watchful.

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Autism and Bright Spots in Life

Autism and the Bright Spots in Life

This may sound odd coming from someone with two adult children with autism, but the last few weeks autism and its affects have been a big topic in our lives.  Sometimes, I think we are so used to our life and our schedule that we don’t really “think” about autism, but it’s been big news this week.  Actually, the big news has been that both kids have made amazing strides and are doing such cool things.  Autism isn’t winning this week at all!

Bright Spot #1 – Casey got to be Cinderella for their Halloween dance and wear her dress to the workshop the next day.  She had asked to be Cinderella for 2 months and couldn’t stop smiling as she got into her beautiful, glittery (ugh – i don’t do glitter at all!  🙂  ) dress.  She posed for several pictures before dancing at her “ball.”

Bright Spot #2 – Rob found a clown costume he wanted to wear. We had planned to be characters from Cinderella (Rob, Mandy and Cory were mice, I was the fairy godmother) but he wanted to wear this outfit so bad.  And it was a mask!  He has NEVER worn a mask before, but was so excited and giggled as he got dressed for the dance.  (I hate clowns – I mean, I seriously do NOT like clowns and this was a creepy clown mask!  But – he was happy!)  He only wore it for a while at the dance (he got too hot), but everyone commented on how cool he looked.

Bright Spot #3 – I had to take Rob to the ER Tuesday.  And no, that’s not the bright spot!  The bright spot was that even though he hates hospitals, strangers and new places, he was wonderful!  He sat quietly and waited, then let the doctor look at his ears, even though he wanted our family doctor.  He waited while the nurse got his meds ordered and then asked to go back to the workshop instead of going to Grandma’s house.

Bright Spot #4 – Casey passed out candy to the “widdle” kids who were brave enough to trick or treat in the rain.  She giggled and rocked back and forth as she watched them walk up to the porch.  She was so excited!  This was the first year we had tried doing this, as she as always asked about trick or treating and I wasn’t sure she would be ok with passing out candy and not going herself.  I’m sure some of our neighbors would be okay with her dressing up and trick or treating at their houses, but I have finally gotten her to understand she isn’t going, so I don’t want to do that.  She lasted about half an hour, then decided her iPad was more fun than more little kids.  🙂

Bright Spot #5 – Rob tried two new foods this week!  He didn’t like either of them, but he was willing to take a bite and try.  I think the pudding texture is just too hard for him, but he just didn’t like the crackers.

Bright Spot #6 – I picked them up early Thursday for Rob’s follow up appointment with our family doctor.  We had to wait over half an hour (a rare thing in our doctor office!) but they both sat so quietly and patiently in the waiting room.  He got giggly at one point and she was rocking in her chair, but in no way did they disturb anyone else waiting.  When we got to see the doctor, Rob answered his questions and showed him which ear was bothering him.  And then told him we were going to Hobby Lobby and the Dollar Tree.  And Casey added McDonalds!   (We had a really nice evening!  No anxiety song, despite the crazy, rainy weather and the change in his routine!)

Bright Spot #7 – They both volunteer at different places around town with staff from their workshop.  Friday, Casey went to a day care while they children were sleeping to clean toys.   Her staff was so excited, they called and told me all about how she smiled and carefully wiped every toy and the bin the toys were in before putting everything back quietly.  The pictures they shared are so precious to me – Casey has a huge smile on her face!  (And she didn’t even try to take any Sesame Street toys home with her!  🙂  )

Honestly, I needed a week of bright spots.  Life has been crazy busy and I’ve felt like I was just dealing with stuff and not really enjoying all the little moments that we all need to see every day.  I’m usually the kind of person to always look for the bright spots in every day.  I thank God for the happy little moments that we can all find each day if we look hard enough, but lately, even though I’m thankful for those little moments, I haven’t fully enjoyed them.

Today, as I write this, I’ve loved remembering each moment.  I look at the kids and think how proud I am of them – how hard life is for them at times, but they still laugh and smile about little things.  Like a new coloring book and a pack of clay from the Dollar Tree or McDonalds for supper.  A costume they love – seeing Mandy and Cory – going to Wal-mart with Mandy and having supper at their house.  Tracie is coming tonight and Casey can’t stop giggling about that.

And I know that they (and autism) have taught me so much more than I ever taught them.