In just a few days, we will be loading up the car for a short trip to the Jersey shore and to Sesame Place in Pennsylvania. I’m not ashamed to admit I’m worried about it. Casey is beyond excited as she loves to go go go. Rob is the one I’m worried about. Will he say “Tomorrow’s Hopewell” a million times? (And no, I’m not exaggerating – when Mom and I took them to Virginia a few years ago, he was like an old record with the needle stuck. I thought I would lose my mind. And I knew he was enjoying the mountains!) Autism always makes things interesting.
When we stayed in the hotel a few months ago, he had a hard time going to sleep. I had to turn the TV and bathroom light on and he was able to sleep. You can bet I won’t turn them off this week! 🙂 He just really doesn’t like his schedule changed. But – I have had some bright spots that make me think that all the growing up he has done in the last year will make this an awesome trip!
Last week, Casey was talking about seeing Elmo and Ernie and Cookie Monster. He was listening, but didn’t look happy at all. So I reminded him that we were going to go swimming, too, in the ocean. I’m not sure how much he really wants to go in the ocean, but I think he will love watching the waves as much as he loves sitting by water! He didn’t get anxious listening, so I took that as a win.
The other night, we were at my parents’ house and I said, “Rob, tell Grandma and Grandpa where we are sleeping Tuesday.” He looked at them and said, “Hotel!” I will admit it – I did a little dance in their kitchen! He responded appropriately! Then I said, “Tell them where we are going to swim.” And he answered “Ocean!” Yep – another dance from me and a squeal! I was so excited (and I still am! 🙂 ) and I had hope that maybe he would be okay on the trip.
I still have that feeling, but thoughts are circling in my head. And, I know most of these things are not a big deal at all. Mandy is going with us and if need be, we will split up at the park. I doubt Rob will want to wait while Casey “meets” her friends, but as Mandy says, he does like to watch people. One of us can take him to ride while Casey does her thing. Or maybe he will want to meet them, too. (highly unlikely as he knows it’s people in costumes – she doesn’t seem to realize this and he plays along for her sake. 🙂 )
Will they be too noisy in the hotel? She is not light footed – anyone in a room under her may be in for some thumps. Will he be singing Long Black Train over and over? I kind of doubt this, as we aren’t planning on spending much time in our room. The hotel has a private beach and a pool. The room is to sleep! I think we will have to drag him inside at night, while Casey will be on the beach for an hour and be ready to do something else.
Will we be able to find a bathroom for him on the way over and back? I’ll take him in the women’s restroom, but he hates that. He knows he doesn’t belong there, but…. some times, we have no choice. Will he be willing to wear his new swim trunks? And a different shirt to get wet? Will she be willing to wear a t-shirt over her bathing suit (she burns quickly!)?
Would it be possible for him to take only one blanket and not an entire suitcase full? Thank God for suitcases on wheels! Will she pick out nice shirts and not what she gets in her head she is supposed to wear? Will he wear flip flops on the beach so his shoes don’t fill with sand?
I know most of these are not a big deal in the grand scheme of life. They are little things – but with autism, sometimes, it’s the little things that make or break a day. Sometimes, I get irritated with autism. I just want to take the kids away for a few days without the extra stress of trying to remember everything they need to stay somewhat on their schedules. Snacks for pill time. Snacks for after bath (and no, these are not the same – though we may try that on our trip). Pills and the “right” clothes and ipads and chargers and blankets and stuffed animals. Insurance cards, IDs and guardianship papers, just in case. Plus the usual stuff.
Every family with special needs knows that going away for a few days is not an easy thing to do. We can’t just grab some clothes and go. We have to carefully research where we are going for places that are accommodating. We have to look for accessibility and services that might be available to help our family have a more enjoyable time. (I don’t want to think about the hours I’ve spend looking at Sesame Place’s app to learn all I can before we get there! And the park is Autism – certified – staff is trained in autism and services are available.) It should be a simple thing to go to a park that welcomes families with autism. I’m just over thinking things.
But – it’s so much more relaxing for all of us when we are knowledgeable before we get there. We have our tickets, so no waiting in line. I’ve downloaded the forms so we can get a pass to skip lines on some rides. I know we need to be at the parade route about 30 minutes before it starts. My head spins with all I’m trying to remember.
At the same time, I know going places is the only way to for Casey and Rob to learn life skills. I know this is something they will both enjoy, once we get the details worked out. I know that autism awareness can only happen when families like ours GO places and show the world how freaking awesome and amazing our kids are! So – watch out New Jersey! We’ll see you in a few days! Watch out Sesame Place – she’s ready to meet everyone!
And Mandy and I deserve time to sit on the beach and watch the waves. We deserve a break from “real life” and to sink our toes in warm sand and feel the sun on our faces while we listen to Casey and Rob giggle at the waves. Your family deserves this, too! Plan, worry, stress, pack – and then go. Have fun and watch your child learn more about the world. Meltdowns may happen – things won’t go according to plan. But, really, who cares? Life goes on despite all of that. Keep spreading awareness and enjoy spending time with your family!