Autism and the Unpredictable Speed of Change

When you live in a house with autism, you become adapt at keeping things the same – the same foods, the same schedule, the same clothes.  That’s why Rob’s changes in the last few weeks have pleasantly shocked me – and made me wonder “WHY?”

Rob doesn’t like new foods, new clothes or new places.  New people make him nervous until he gets a reading on them (Both Casey and Rob sense the true person inside – if they don’t like/trust someone, I watch that person closely!)  But, last week, he put a new shirt – all by himself.  Now, yes, it was the same brand that he loves, but that has never mattered before.  Even a new shirt that was exactly like an old one was something to avoid.

He used a hammer to hang up signs in his room instead of telling me to do it.  He made pancakes.

He ate canned fruit a few weeks ago.  Not because I asked him to try, but because he saw it in the refrigerator and asked for it.  (apparently, it has to be canned pineapple, not the little snack packs, because he refused to eat those – but, hey!  He tried!)   He also tried a blackberry (and it flew across the room when he spit it out!)  I can put different things in his lunchbox.

He has been coming home and not running for his iPad immediately.  He has been playing with his Legos, lincoln logs, trains, and magnetic blocks again.  He does still get excited about ripping up magazines and cardboard, but isn’t actively searching for it.  He lays on his bed and just chills out.

The staff at their workshop said he has been joining in activities more at the shop.  I heard stories about his laughter and how silly he can be.  A few weeks ago, a strap on his sensory swing broke and he fell (not far – thank God he was just sitting in it and not swinging widely!).  I was so worried about him not having his swing.  When it was installed, it was to help him with the out of control anxiety he was dealing with every day.  I also worried that even if it was fixed, he would never use it again – he tends to remember when painful things happen and can’t understand that just because it happened once, it may not happen again.

So I filled out the paperwork and the part was ordered.

And now, he acts like he doesn’t need or want it.   HUH??

Last week, he went to play Bingo at a nursing home.  (WHAT?)  A staff member asked anyone who wanted to go to get their coat and he did.  While we have played Bingo at home, he loses interest quickly.  He even played while there!  A new activity in a new place?  The autism mom in me was suspicious.  What’s going on?

The moon isn’t full.  The weather is as crazy as it’s been for weeks.  His meds haven’t changed.  The people around him are the same.  Our schedule is the same.  I wracked my brain trying to figure out why he was so willing to do new things.

After Bingo, he went to aquatic therapy, which he loves.  On his way home, he stopped a staff member to show her his swimming bag.  It has Mighty Morphin Power Rangers (the first ones) on it and he named them all for her.  He started a conversation!  Rob talked first!  Can I be any happier??

The next day, he went to a care center to do crafts with residents.  He talked more about the power rangers.  He sat and did as he was supposed to.   And as happy as I am, I want to know why?  What changed and what can I do to keep him excited to try new things?

He went to play basketball. He went to a gym and walked.  He came home and got sick later that night and even that was different.  He’s always been too scared and upset to be alone when he is sick.  This night, he took care of everything on his own.  I didn’t even know he was sick.  I did stay up with him, as he never went to sleep that night (or until early evening the next day, even though he was feeling much better).

His schedule changed Friday evening and he didn’t care.  He played with his blocks and went to bed.  The weather changed quickly last night and he hasn’t seemed to notice.

I am over the moon happy for all the positive changes.  I am so proud of him for trying things that truly stress him beyond anything I can imagine.  But, I still want to know why?  Has he just matured?  Was he spending too much time in the swing at the workshop?  But how can you tell, cause it wasn’t that long ago that he couldn’t get through his day without that soothing him.

Something like this happened to Casey several years ago.  She wasn’t always the social butterfly she is now.  She much preferred staying away from stores and restaurants and to only go to familiar places.  After she graduated and moved to the workshop every day, she began to open up to the idea of trying new places.  Now, it’s a struggle to make her understand that money doesn’t grow on trees (or in my purse – she thinks it just magically appears there) and she has to pick and choose what she does.  For the most part, she is doing awesome with that.

Maybe that’s all that’s happened with Rob.  He matured enough to handle stress and the idea of new places and people.  I hope that’s all it is.  I worry that someone was bothering him and that person is no longer near him.  I worry that he hasn’t felt well and I didn’t know it.  Don’t you love autism mom guilt?  I just need to let it go and enjoy the changes in him!

I’m excited about all the changes and I’m loving every minute of it!  I hope it continues and that he might learn to enjoy new things – or at least to try them with proper supports.  Both of them are going to a planetarium tomorrow – neither even know what it is (Casey thinks she is going to a star!) but he’s willing to try.  I can’t wait to hear how it goes!

I hope reading about the changes in Rob helps you remember that our kids are constantly changing and growing and maturing.  Your child may not like new things now, but maybe that will change.  They are learning more every day – even if we don’t see immediate results in the hard work we do with them.  Keep the faith – and keep trying, even when you don’t think it’s doing any good.  It is – I promise you!