How to Keep Friends Close when Autism is Your Life

This week seemed to be the week of missing friends – both in my life and in discussions I’ve had with other autism parents.  I have read stories on several autism Facebook pages I follow about missing friends and losing friends because autism is taking over their life.

I wish I could say this never happens.  But, it does.  Maybe a friend doesn’t know what to do around your child.  Maybe they get tired of listening to you talk about the issues that surround autism.  Maybe they just don’t know what to say or do when you are crying.  Maybe it was just time for that friendship to fade away.

I don’t think I’ve ever actually “lost” a friend because of autism.  I know I don’t see so many people that I think about often and I miss talking and laughing with.  I want to pick up the phone and call, but some nights, I’m just so tired.  It’s too much effort to try. And I feel terrible about that.

I am thankful for Facebook and texting. As impersonal as they may be, sometimes, that’s all the contact I’m able to do.  I found one of my best friends from my childhood on Facebook and am loving seeing Terri’s life in pictures.  A quick message from her is enough to brighten my day.

Other friends will send me texts, just to say hi or to check on us.  We may text a few times over the course of a day, but again, those texts bring a smile and often laughter.  I have amazing friends who know just what to say to make me laugh.  It may be weeks between times we talk, but I know how busy we all are.

But I feel guilty that I don’t see them more – or that I don’t pick up the phone to call.  Of course, some nights, calling anyone would treat them to an earful of whatever Rob’s phrase is for the evening.  Lately, it’s been “long black train” – only he draws it out into a long sentence and in a loud voice.  It wouldn’t be the relaxing phone conversation I want!

The funny thing is, even if I think I have no energy for a phone call, I feel so much better after talking to my friends.  Even if it’s just for a few minutes and all we talk about is stuff no one really cares about – just hearing a friendly voice is enough to brighten my day.

So here is my advice to you.  If you are having a bad day, call your best friend or send a text.  You don’t have to talk a long time or even about the stress of your day.  Let them vent to you and help you think about something besides autism or meltdowns or sensory issues.  Let them pull you out of the little box we all seem to live in.

Because autism can be a lonely life for parents.  We worry about our kids having friends, but what about us?  We need those friendships, too – probably even more than some of our kids.  We live our lives according to our kids schedules, no matter how hard we try to pull them into new experiences with us.

But – you know what?  We don’t have to have only friends who know autism.  Doesn’t everyone have friends that they only do certain things with?  Maybe you have a friend that you share a love of scary books with and you talk for hours about the latest Stephen King book or movie.  Maybe you have a friend who loves football as much as you and that’s your only connection.  Or co-workers that you can have a drink with.

My point is – don’t ignore the people who don’t know or understand autism.  Keep enjoying whatever it is that brought you together in the first place.  It’s ok to not think about autism every minute and that’s hard when you are only around people who live autism, too.

I have friends who have never met Casey and Rob and that’s ok.  They may not understand how different my life is at times but they are still loving, caring friends.  The only reason they don’t know my kids is the distances between where we live.  When I do get to make plans with them – finally – the last thing I want to do is take Casey and Rob, too.  I want a relaxing night of good food and lots of laughs.

You may think that people should know how busy you are and that they should make an effort to stay in your life.  But, maybe they are afraid they will catch you at a bad time if they call – or maybe, they are struggling with problems you don’t know anything about.  Don’t lose a friend over a misunderstanding.  Make a quick call and see what happens.  Send a card or write an email in the middle of the night while you watch your child bounce around the room.

You may not be able to go places with your friends easily.  Why not invite them to your house?  Plan a day of crafting or movies.  Have everyone bring a dessert and share.  While it may not be quiet in your house and a naked child may appear at any time, you will be with your friends.  They love you and – if you are comfortable inviting them to your home – they must know your kids.  Autism is nothing to be ashamed of – laugh it up!

We have to think outside the box when making plans for our kids, so why not do the same when trying to keep friends close?  No one ever said a weekly lunch date is a requirement for friendship or an hours long phone call.  Tracie has gone with me when I take the kids places – even just for a walk.  We chat while the kids run ahead.

Or we catch up in the car on the way to doctor appointments.  Invite a friend to go to the park with you.  One of my cousins and I use messenger to “chat” while we watch the same movie on TV.  Keeping the people you need close is hard, even without autism.  Busy schedules are difficult to co-ordinate.  And the guilt you may feel for not being there for your friends can eat away at you.

Let it go.  Just like I’ve told you before to let the dusting wait or the laundry waiting to be folded.  Sometimes, your kids need you  more than your friends do.  Your true friends will understand that.  Don’t let others lay more guilt on you.  Let it go.

For my friends, both near and far – ones I’ve known forever and ones I’ve never met – thank you.  Know I think of you and our fun times often and love you all!