Sometimes, You Just Hurt

As many years as autism has been in my life, you would think I would be used to tough questions. To reports that show that how much Casey and Rob are affected by their autism. And mostly, I am.

When I got the mail this morning, these letters arrived. Statements of Expert Evaluations. One for each. And I felt a kick in the gut.

It’s silly. I knew the forms were coming. We are having Mandy named as co-guardian for Casey and Rob and had to have these forms filled out for the probate court. I’ve been their guardian since each turned 18, so the court is aware of them, but it had to be done. No big deal.

Except, today, for some reason, I cried about it. I live with them. I am well aware of what they can and can’t do. But seeing it on paper is hard. I can even laugh at myself now, but an hour ago, those papers were heartbreaking.

So here’s my advice. Cry if you want to. It won’t change anything, but it’ll help you feel better. The tough questions and decisions will never end as long as autism is part of your life.

Cry if you need to.

It won’t change your love and devotion to your child. It just shows again how much you love them and how you wish the world knew just how amazing they are.

Cry and move on. Remember, those forms don’t change anything.

I will always have the most amazing, most awesome kids. Autism and tough forms to fill out will never change that.

If you want to read more about our adventures with autism, please check out our book – Autism, Apples & Kool-Aid.