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Autism and Grief

Autism and Grief

A few weeks ago, I got a call that no parent or grandparent wants to get. The baby that we had been dreaming for and talking about for six months had passed away. Rob hadn’t fully gotten the idea that a baby was coming at Christmas, while Casey was very much looking forward to being an “auntie” and to the baby shower that was planned. I am still struggling at times to believe that my grandson is truly gone.

The first few days after the call were the worst. Rob was scared that Mandy and Cory were in heaven, too, while Casey couldn’t understand why I was crying when Heaven is such a happy place to be in. She also thought that only old people went to Heaven – she never knew that a baby could go, too. The more I cried, the more upset they became, so I struggled to hide my tears from them – to be strong and make sure they understood that Mandy and Cory were okay and that they were safe.

Rob asked if I was sick. Casey wanted to know if she could be an auntie another day. Rob wanted to see Mandy and Cory. Casey wanted to talk about the baby in the only way she could – by telling me everyone else who is Heaven. I listened and assured both of them that I was okay, just sad – that everyone was just very sad and that it was okay for us to cry.

For people with autism, it can be very hard to understand emotions – especially strong ones like grief. They may react in ways that most people believe are inappropriate, such as giggling or smiling. Casey will do this at times when someone is sad or mad. She gets nervous and laughs. If this happens to someone you know, it’s best to not react to it. They can’t help being nervous and if you call attention to it, the nervousness will only get worse.

If you have to tell someone with autism about a person passing away, be sure you know what you believe before you tell them. Our family believes in God and Heaven and I share that with Casey and Rob all the time. They don’t understand why no one who goes to Heaven comes back – they believe it’s a real place, like to visit on vacation. When I had to tell them the baby was gone, I told them he went to Heaven and that I was sad because I missed him.

Please don’t use phrases to avoid saying someone had died. Never say a person “went to sleep” and isn’t coming back. You are just asking for trouble – your child may never sleep because of the fear they will go away and not come back. And don’t avoid telling your child someone has passed away. Your child will notice the absence and may start to believe they were bad, so the other person has decided not to visit them. It seems silly to us, but to someone with communication issues, it may seem perfectly reasonable.

Have an honest talk with your child, even if the discussion is just you talking. Your child understands more than you know. It won’t be an easy talk to have. Let yourself cry if you need to. It’s okay for your child to see you upset. Be ready for some anxiety on their part. Maybe questions. Maybe tears. Remember that grief hits people differently and whatever reaction they have is okay. Remember to take care of yourself, too, and allow yourself to grieve.

Hug your family tighter. Tell everyone you care about that you love them.

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Autism and the Difficult Topics of Conversation

Autism and the Difficult Topics of Conversation

Another autism site I follow recently posted that her mother was very ill and wouldn’t survive more than a few days. She took her 14 year old son with autism to see his grandma in the hospital and let him say goodbye in his own way. He and his grandma were extremely close and mom felt it was important for him to do this. The backlash I saw on her post was immediate. While some were supportive of her and expressed their sympathy, others were calling her a terrible mom for putting her son through that. I was shocked.

Autism is not easy. It’s never a cut and dried decision that lasts. When my children lost their great grandpa, he was in the care center and they did go visit him a few times – when he was still himself and able to talk to them like always. I think Rob knew what was happening, but I doubt Casey did. When my grandparents died, they weren’t in a hospital and it wasn’t something that we knew was coming. Losing their grandpa a few years ago was harder on them, but also easier, as they both knew he was going to Heaven to be with his dad and mom. He was sick for a while and they saw him in the nursing home, but not the hospital.

Casey and Rob seem to take death in stride. They were both upset about not seeing them until they get to heaven (they both know Heaven is a place, but they don’t always understand why we can’t go and come back, like a vacation.). When someone dies (or when we lost our dog Eve a few years ago0, I simply told them the truth. That Eve was very sick and she died. That grandpa Bill was very sick and he died. And that they were both in Heaven now, with God. Casey talks about Heaven often, Rob – not much. But, of the two, she is more likely to talk than him. He is more likely to talk about the person – Eve, Grandpa Jones.

I didn’t know what they would understand. They are smarter than most people give them credit for because they don’t talk much. I have no idea if I told them the right things to ease their missing that person. It doesn’t seem that I scared them and for that, I’m grateful.

The thing is, autism or not, there are difficult things you need to talk to your child about. Will they understand everything? Who knows? But if you don’t talk to them, their minds will decide for them and what they think up may be the worse thing ever. (For example, I would never tell them someone “went to sleep” when they died – they might think if you sleep, you never come back and God knows we have enough trouble sleeping without that, too!)

When their dad and I divorced, I was really at a loss to explain that to them. Finally, I decided to give them no details – only what would directly affect them. I simply told them that Daddy would have a new house and that they could go see him as much as they wanted. Mandy, of course, had more questions and I answered those as honestly as I could. What Casey and Rob thought about the divorce is a mystery as neither as ever mentioned it to me. I didn’t know what to say to them, but it wouldn’t have been fair for me to not tell them it was happening.

Talking to Casey about her period was another tough topic. But, again, I told her a very simplified version of what was happening. She only said, “Boys?” and I told her no, that boys don’t have them because boys don’t have babies. She’s never mentioned it again. They both know boys and girls are different, but neither seems to care. They have little interest in the opposite sex, though Rob may grin at pictures of women once in a while. 🙂

Drugs are another thing you may need to discuss with your child. I have talked to mine, but since Casey refuses to take an ibuprofen for a headache because the doctor didn’t tell her she could (tho, at our last visit, their neuro wrote in his orders that Casey could take an ibuprofen for a headache and to ask mom for one when she needs it, so she will now. How cool was that of him?? 🙂 ), I know she won’t take anything from anyone. Rob will take ibuprofen, but only from me or Mandy. But – they are also very sheltered. Your child may be higher functioning and may have friends say “try this, you will like it!” and do it. You have got to talk to them. You don’t need all the answers – only to talk to them!

Even talking to your child about their autism is important. Imagine knowing you are different, but not knowing why and no one will tell you! How scary is that? When Casey was 8 – 9, we were talking about autism (actually, it was IEP time and I told her I was trying to think what she would like to learn – not really expecting an answer, but you never know!) and she said “hurts my ears.” She couldn’t explain more, but I took it to mean that to her, autism meant her ears hurt. Too many loud, deep sounds and she just couldn’t handle it some days. She has always had the more sensitive ears of the two of them. His are sensitive, too, but not to the degree hers were. (AIT – auditory intergration therapy helped her a lot!)

Just because your child has autism doesn’t mean you don’t have to have the difficult talks with them. You will need to talk to them at their level. Decide what you want to tell them, break it down into simple sentences and do it. You don’t even need to do it all at once! A minute here and there will accomplish the same thing as an hour lecture that they may tune out anyway. You have to tell them about death, drugs, divorce, strangers. It won’t be easy or fun (but is it easy or fun with typical kids, either?? nope!) but that’s your job as a parent.

Obviously, depending on your child’s functioning level and your lives, there are some topics you may get to avoid. Maybe divorce isn’t something you need to talk about. If your child is lower functioning, maybe drugs aren’t something you need to discuss. But, death will happen. Please don’t leave your child wondering why someone never comes to see them anymore! Remember that just because your child doesn’t talk, it doesn’t mean they don’t think! They know more than we realize (as I’m constantly finding out!) and it’s unfair to them not to know what is happening in their lives.

Remember – short simple talks. You don’t need to share a lots of details, unless they ask. And always be ready to answer questions if they are able to ask. Autism or not, you are a parent, first – there’s no avoiding the hard talks! 🙂

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How to Explain Death to your Child with Autism

How to Explain Death to your Child with Autism

Telling your child someone they loved has passed away is never easy.  When that child has autism, it can be even more difficult.  I’ve had to tell the kids before about a death, but those were elderly people.  Today, they had to hear that their grandpa was gone.

They knew he had been sick and in the hospital.  Casey has been talking about Grandpa Bill and Heaven for a few days, but last night, she was saying he was going.  She always smiled when she said it.  She often smiles or giggles when she is nervous or isn’t sure how to react.  But then I realized she was smiling because she was happy for him.  She knew he was going to see Grandpa Jones (his dad) in Heaven.

I got choked up.  When their great-grandparents passed away, we talked about Heaven and being with Jesus.  During our lessons for church, we talked about Jesus and how good people go to Heaven when they die.  She firmly believes in Heaven and Jesus, even if she can’t go there.  It’s a real place to her – like the state she lives in.  She may not completely understand death, but she isn’t scared or unhappy about it.

Rob hasn’t said much, but he rarely does.  He knows about Heaven, but I think he sees it as a place like Oz.  It’s beautiful and some people go and others don’t.  He will ask for Grandpa Bill at times, I’m sure – probably when he visits his house.  He is a little anxious today, but I don’t know how much is from Grandpa and how much is the weather and the long weekend.

Casey is laying on the couch now reciting everyone she knows how has gone to Heaven – Bonnie, Grandpa Hopkins, Grandma Hopkins, Grandpa Jones, Bingo.  She is laughing and giggling.  She isn’t crying, but I am.  She asks “Mommy sick?”  I tell her I’m not sick, just sad.  Now, she is confused, because Heaven is a good place.

So I tell her again that yes, Heaven is good.  I tell her I am sad because I miss the people who are there.  She says “talk?”  Yes, Casey, I want to talk to them again.  Now she says “Talk!” – not a question, but a statement.  Because, when Casey and Rob want to talk to someone, they talk.  I can’t count the number of times I’ve heard one or the other talking to Grandpa Jones or Grandpa Hopkins.  It is so simple to them.

I can’t tell you exactly how to explain death to your child with autism.  The best advice I can give is to say to know your own feelings before you begin.  If you believe in Heaven, then share that with them.  If you have other beliefs, then share those.  And get ready for questions you may not want to answer when you are upset yourself.  The questions may not end for months.

I would caution you not to use phrases like “went to sleep” or “gone away.”  People with autism are so literal that hearing someone went to sleep and will never be seen again is just asking for sleep issues.  Would you go to sleep if you thought you would disappear?  I doubt it.  Avoiding sleep could become an obsession.  The same with saying “gone away” – your child may wonder if every time they can’t see you if you have left forever.

Tell your child the truth.  They may not understand the concept completely, but at least they won’t develop other issues because you took the easy way out.  Tell them what you believe and let them take the lead about questions.  I didn’t take Casey or Rob to any of the funerals and I won’t.  I want them to think of Grandpa in Heaven, not laying so still in a building they drive by all the time.

I am in no way saying my way is the right way.  You have to do what’s right for your child and your family.  Much of it depends on your child’s abilities.  Some people with autism understand death and can handle funerals.  Casey and Rob are not those people.  They won’t understand why Grandpa doesn’t talk to them.  They won’t understand why they never go back to that place to see him.

Explaining death is hard for anyone.  There are books for you to read to your child if that would be easier for you.  Before you do anything, please decide what you believe and follow that belief.  If you are confused, you will never be able to help your child through this difficult time.

Don’t be upset if your child has little or no reaction to losing someone they love.  That doesn’t mean they didn’t love that person – it simply means they don’t understand.   Or maybe they understand and believe in a happier place where we will all be together some time.  Don’t try to force your child to show emotion.

If attending the funeral will be too hard, find someone to stay with your child.  You need time to grieve without trying to take care of your child, too.  You will become upset quickly if your child doesn’t sit quietly in the service.  Save yourself some stress and leave them home.  Or find someone to stay in a quiet room at the funeral with them.

Let your child see you upset.  Let them know it’s ok to cry.  Or laugh or whatever emotion they feel.  Be ready for more behaviors or anxiety.  Make sure you tell their teacher or aides what has happened.

As for me, I’m going to try harder to follow Casey and Rob’s lead.  I’ll try harder to keep the simple faith that no matter how much I miss someone, they are in a happier place and I will see them again some day.